14 years have passed and here we are...Married, both with new jobs and all of the stresses that come along with it. In the very beginning when we first met, wow what a fire between us. We couldn’t keep our hands off of one another and the fire carried on for years after but now it has halted almost to a complete stop. We barely see one another and when we do, we are too tired to even touch. At night, I am mostly alone, with the thoughts, dancing like shadows in my head. My fantasies of him, slipping his arms around me, forcing my body to face his, rip off the lace from my quivering body and kiss every inch until my body screams for sweet release. I am only left with these fantasies, left with an empty imprint on the other side of the bed. I long for even a kiss that makes every muscle in my body tighten, revealing the desire that builds with every breath. 

First time we kissed, it left me in a state of ecstasy, almost like electricity coursing through my veins. It was a rainy night, our faces wet from the downpour but our lips still found one another. The end of the night, the moment when you either say goodbye or let your desires take its course, we decided to let our lust take the reigns. He leaned in, raindrops dripping down my warm, flushed cheek, almost stimulating my body without him even touching me. We had a romantic walk down the beach, our fingertips grazing but not holding hands. It was almost like foreplay, teasing our senses. The moment our lips touched, there was a surge of chills running up and down my spine. His fingers grazed my cheek, moving a strand of wet hair behind my ear. I almost let out a sigh of pleasure but I bit my lip to silence it. He leaned in closer, our wet clothes clinging to both our bodies and he wrapped his arms around me. His tongue then found its way inside, circling around my tongue, creating a heat that left us in a state of oblivion. 

“Autumn, have you seen my black sweater?.....Autumn?...hello??” I was then forced out of my own thoughts by the voice of my husband, Tristan. I shook my head to snap out of my fantasy. 

“I washed it last night because I knew you had that meeting. It’s folded and ironed on top of the dryer” I look up at his face, hoping to see a smile of appreciation. But he just presumes his focus on tying his right shoe, not even noticing my look of hope. 

“Oh, thank you.” He then ties his shoe and walks over to me, kisses my forehead then leaves the room. I try to stop him to get a real kiss but he had already moved away. 

Still fuming from my encounter with Tristan this morning, I make a fresh pot of coffee in the office at my work and spill some on my cardigan. Cursing under my breath, I grab a napkin and try to remove what now has become a stain. 

“Do you need some help with that?” A deep, masculine voice interrupts my angry underbreath ranting. From behind me, the voice is so tantalizing, it intrigues me to turn around to see who it belongs to, then my mouth almost drops as my eyes meet what is standing only a couple inches away from me. A beautiful man with dark hair, with mesmerizingly blue eyes and a body that filled out a tailor-made, pin- striped suit. 

“Ummm....I got it, thanks. I’m just a clutz this morning” I shuddered at my own voice, sounding as if I had just stepped on a squeaky toy. My nerves were on edge as he moved closer to me, leaning in to whisper.

“I usually take my coffee in a cup, not on a sweater” He winked at me, very subtle he moved away then extended his left hand.

“I’m Alexander but I think since you’ll be working with me you can call me Xander” Almost teasing, he waited for my eyes to bulge in surprise as the words escaped those luscious lips that I couldn’t stop staring at, oh I hope he didn’t notice that.

“We....We’ll be working together?” I tried to hide my excitement which then surged through my entire body, leaving me almost shaky at the knees. 

He nods his head, revealing a teasing smile that shakes me to the core, leaving impure thoughts like lightning in a bottle. I then grab another cup and pour coffee into it, handing it over to him. He then reaches for the cup and our fingers graze as he takes it from me. I bite my lip, trying desperately to disguise my attraction for him. He looks into my eyes, so deep, so piercingly that it takes me a minute too long to relinquish the hold of the cup.

“Did you…want me to have the cup??” He tries to be coy and sly at the same time. He was too smooth for his own good and it made me melt like putty in his hands. 

“Oops, sorry. I was lost in my own thoughts for a second there” I turn my head away, hoping he didn’t notice the thought was about him. 

I don’t know what came over me, I was so confused, my head was spinning. I’ve never fantasized about another guy before. This was all so new to me, it felt like I was doing something wrong but I know I wasn’t because I would never do anything to jeopardize my marriage. Besides, he is a work associate and we must be professional.

“So Autumn, will we be able to stay after work to discuss our plans for our new assignment?” Again, forced out of my own thoughts, I turn my head to face him abruptly. 

“Yes...yes that’s fine” Those were all of the words I managed to speak and then he looked at me once again.

“Are you okay Autumn???....you look alil flushed” Xander takes a sip of his coffee and reveals a smile as he drinks it. He is so clever, so suave that it only leaves me to reply with a nervous nod. 

“See you in a couple hours?? Maybe not wear that cardigan, you might get something else on it” He speaks as he walks away, with a mesmerizing grin on his perfect face.

 

So that night I get home late, my mind wanders as I sit down on the edge of my bed. I slip off my heels and wonder how it would feel to feel Xander’s lips graze every toe, his tongue graze my inner thigh as he slowly slides my pantyhose down from the round of my cheeks to the tips of my toes. His eyes looking up at me as he kisses so softly, my overheated, flushed skin. My thighs ache as his tongue teases, working its way up then down almost where the wetness has formed. I drip down my leg and he catches it with his tongue. His thumb hardens around the top of my panties as he slowly slides them to one side. He reveals me so delicately until a moan pierces the heated silence. His tongue finds the slits of my delicate spot, it sends me over the edge. Heat is rushing through my entire body like flames fanning over me. My back arches as his tongue moves with every sway of my body, every swell of my rising breath, I moan as he inches me closer to climax. And as his tongue thrusts against…

“Wow It’s been such a long night” Tristan storms into the bedroom, interrupting where my hand was touching. I recompose myself as he then focuses on me when he takes his sweater off. Not even figuring out what I was doing, he pulls on shorts then crawls into bed. I change into a nightie and crawl into bed alongside Tristan. His head is facing away from me, I stare at the back of his head for a couple minutes then I drift off into a deep sleep.

“I want to feel every inch of you, taste every inch of you” Xander whispered into my ear as the fantasy continued in the middle of the night. Legs intertwined as his body shifted back and forth on top of me. Ripping open my silk blouse revealing my lace bra, he rushes to take the rest of the blouse off. Pulling down my straps, he kisses my cleavage as I breathe in deep from pleasure. He then repositions me as he faces me away, unhooking my bra with his teeth. I lift my head as he grips my hair gently in a teasing way, yanking only slightly to gain further control. He kisses the back of my neck, using his tongue to lick around my ear. It drives me crazy as he whispers, feeling the heat from his breath.

“I wanted you from the first second I saw you, I want to make you scream my name. I want to own a part of you that no one else can have” Xander turns my head so my eyes meet his seductive gaze. He turns my body to my side, slid his fingers down my shoulder, to my hips, to the inner part of my thighs. He kisses my neck as his hands move over my stomach then lower…

The alarm then sounds, startling me out of my fantasy once again and Tristan shakes out of his own sleep. 

“Are you okay? It’s only the alarm” Tristan turns over to kiss my cheek. I try to pull him closer but he gets out of the bed.

“Autumn, I can’t. I have to shower and get ready for work. It’s a big day today” Tristan takes his shorts off, grabs a towel, wraps it around himself and looks back at me. 

“Yeah, big day.” I sit on the bed, reminiscing about the dream I had and I sigh from longing. 

At work, I could not concentrate everytime Xander was around me which was the majority of the day, knowing we were working on an assignment together. I couldn’t even give him eye contact, I kept thinking about his lips touching mine. His hands around my waist, gripping tighter, thrusting his hips into mine. 

“You like that baby?” He whispered into my ear, slowly moving his hands up and down my quivering body. 

“Autumn? Do you like that?” Xander startled me with his words, I didn’t know what he was asking me until reality forced me back.

“Like what?” I panicked, trying to focus on what he had asked me and he looked at me with a confused expression. 

“Were you paying attention or were you distracted again?” Xander stared at me almost trying to dissect my thoughts.

“I’m not distracted. I was just trying to focus on this assignment” I tried to make it about work. But seeing the look on his face, I don’t think he believed me. With one raised brow, he came closer and took the pen from my hand that I was tapping on the desk out of nervousness. 

“I think you might be thinking about something else” Xander tried to meet my gaze but I didn’t want my eyes to give me away. 

“And what else would I be thinking about?” I fake my composure, trying so hard to make it seem like I have a hold on the situation. 

“I think I might know what’s going on here. If I say it out loud, it might change things” Xander remains close to me, slowly moving his hand closer to mine. He looks at me, awaiting for my reply but all I do is breathe heavily, not able to keep it composed. 

“Autumn, I know.” I hold my breath as his hand covers mine. Gently he moves my hair away from the side of my face. His hand grazes the small of my back, bringing chills down my spine. 

“Xander, I don’t think this is a good idea” the words manage to escape from my trembling lips. 

“I know we can’t but it’s hard for me to fight it” Xander pulls me in and I put a hand on his chest to push him away slightlyl. It’s so hard for me to resist the weight of his body, feeling the heat coming off of his feverish skin. 

“We can’t do this. I’m married and we have to stay professional” I stutter as I bite my lip, holding back the truth that inside me that screamed to escape. I keep my hand on his chest, feeling his heart race from under his smooth, ironed shirt. I wanted so badly to lose control but I knew if I let myself go, I’d never be able to get back from this. It would all crumble around me if I chose to only think about myself for one moment of sheer pleasure. 

“I want to…” Before Xander could say what he was about to say, it was interrupted by a knock on the door. It was our coworker, Cassandra, gesturing for me to follow her.

“Autumn, you have a phone call from Tristan” Cassandra looks over to Xander, almost sensing the tension from looking at his face. 

“Did I interrupt something in there?” She looked at me, almost giddy, thinking she was about to hear some juicy gossip. 

“No Cassie, we were just really focused on the assignment, we almost made a breakthrough but we were stuck on something” I tried to search for any excuse to change the subject so Cassie would leave it alone. 

She looked over at me and sighed as if disappointed at my answer, then handed me the work phone. I took a deep breath, almost to ready myself for hearing my own husband’s voice. What did he want, what could he possibly want that he had to call me. I held the phone with a firm grip and lifted it to my ear, to hear Tristan’s breath. 

“Hello?, is everything okay?” My voice seemed to shake alil but I cleared my throat, trying to put it off as a slight cough instead of nerves. 

“Yes, everything is fine. I just wanted to let you know that I’ll be leaving town for a couple days. We have a conference and corporate chose me to be one of the leads in their presentation. I’m so sorry to tell you like this,  but the flight is late tonight. I will see you in 2 days” Tristan sounded like he was afraid to tell me about the trip but also felt rushed. I took a breath to relieve the annoyance in my head and answered.

“If it’s your job then you must go. Please call me when you get the chance?” I forced the words out of my mouth as I spoke, I caught my breath. 

“We will have dinner at your favorite restaurant when I get back, okay?” Tristan tried to put forth effort to sound like a loving husband. He didn’t want to seem like he was neglecting his wife. 

“Okay, sounds great. Love you” I struggled for anything else to say, trying to wrap my brain around the storm of emotions that were forming inside of me. 

“Love you too,  bye” Tristan then hung up the phone and I stood there almost frozen when I felt a breath behind me. It was Xander, listening in on our conversation. 

“Husband will be out of town for a couple days?...interesting” Xander grinned over my shoulder, I almost felt the smile form from behind me. I shuddered as he leaned closer to whisper into my ear.

“Looks like we will have some alone time to work on our….project” Xander paused when he said the word project, almost turning the meaning of it into something provocative. I said nothing, I didn’t say a word. I was stunned and my body refused to move. It seemed to respond to his voice and drive all of my senses wild. 

The day was finally over and I had come home to an empty house. I dropped my things onto the kitchen table, shed all of my clothes, poured some wine, went upstairs and made a bubble bath. I dipped my toe into the warm water then the rest of my body followed slowly. The water glistened on my wet skin, glowing from the light of the candles I lit all around me. I sipped my white wine and closed my heavy eyes, allowing myself to drift off into a deep sleep. 

“May I join you, gorgeous?” A familiar voice broke the silence and invaded the haze my sleep had drifted me off into. Xander dropped his towel, revealing every muscle in his perfect body. His eyes were fixated on me as he dips his toe into the water, slowly lowering himself opposite from me. 

“What are you doing here?” It didn’t even sound like I was shocked, moreso excited at his timing. He smiled at me, grinning as his wandering hands seemed to precisely find my legs in the foamy water. 

“It’s your fantasy so you tell me” He slides his hands up my legs, grazing a delicate spot with his fingertips. He then moves his body closer so his face is right against mine. He teases with his nose, touching against mine to make me want him to kiss me even more. His lips barely touch mine, only to send a tingle through my body. 

“I have wanted to do this so badly it hurts” Xander’s lips then crash against mine, so wild and so deep. I lose myself in the feeling,  it electrifies me in a way that leaves me trembling. I breathe heavily under his hold as he stops to look at me then resumes crashing into me like a tidal wave of lust. 

“Please don’t stop, please” I scream out after every breath that is taken between a deep kiss. The water crashes against our bodies as he thrusts into me harder and I hold onto him tighter. 

The phone then rings and I wake up abruptly, almost spilling my wine. Disoriented by the phone ringing and my very vivid sexual encounter, I get out of the water and wrap a towel around me to search for my phone. I then find it and see to my surprise that it is Tristan. I then press the answer button and clear my voice to gain some composure.

“Hello?” I answer and wait for his immediate response to occupy my mind on something else rather than Xander’s naked, glistening body.

“Hello babe, just checking on you” Tristan sounded so calm, so relaxed and I was the one who needed to calm myself.

“Oh hey, I’m fine. Was just relaxing in a bubble bath with some wine” I tried to hear my own voice to reassure that I was composed.

“That sounds perfect right about now. Wish I was there with you” Tristan sounded unlike himself, like the old Tristan. It was confusing to hear, knowing how the past couple months have been. No sex, no touching, not even kissing. I was then annoyed with his response.

“Why would you want to be here?...we haven’t had a bubble bath together in so long I can’t even remember” I snapped at him, not even knowing why the words escaped my lips.

“And I’m sorry for that. Just been so stressed” Tristan tries to explain but I just don’t want to hear it.

“That’s your excuse? You don’t even kiss me or touch me” I get so angry I just hang up the phone on him. He tries to call back but I just don’t want to hear it. I drop the towel, put on a long t-shirt and slip into bed. 

Next day I try to avoid Xander but knowing we are working on a major project together, it’s kind of impossible. At first, he is strictly business and we get a lot done. Then it gets later into the day and more people are leaving to go home,  We are almost completely alone in the office now except for two other coworkers who are working on their own assignments. Xander decides to break the silence, looking over at me trying to unpuzzle my facial expression.

“So...are we ever going to talk about what happened between us yesterday?” Xander tries to meet my gaze but I keep my head down, looking at the papers on the desk, almost studying them too hard.

“What’s there to talk about?” I deny it with every fiber of my being, knowing that I have been fantasizing about him the past couple of nights. 

“You’re going to play coy? Or just in denial?” Xander puts his hand on the paper that I was so desperately trying to read, to get his voice out of my head.

“No coy or denial, just work. I just want to work. I don’t want this to become a thing ok?” I try to move his hand away but he only grazes it against my cheek and I sigh out loud, hoping to god that he didn’t hear it. But knowing there was a grin on his face, he did. 

“I knew you felt it too. I know this can get messy. I know that. I just can’t fight the urge to just take you on this desk right here and now. Just stop me now if I’m out of line” Xander then moves his hands around my hips and lifts me onto the desk, moving the papers off of it. He waits for a moment, as if to wait for me to push him away.

My head is spinning, I know I want this, I want this so bad but I can’t allow this to happen. I am dancing on the edge and if I step too close I will definitely fall if I allow him to fulfill the fantasies that I have been dying to make real. Do I let him? Do I let him touch me, touch every part of me that aches for him to touch?

“Just tell me to stop if you don’t want this to happen. Tell me to stop right now ‘cause otherwise I will not be able to stop myself” Xander then resumes kissing my neck, trickling his fingers down my spine, awaiting my answer.

“Xander…” Was all I could say, I couldn’t speak, I was lost in this moment and was having such a hard time getting out of it. 

“Xander…..we can’t. We just can’t. I can’t do this” I held in my feelings, my lust, leaving my body aching, forcing my desires back into its little box. I didn’t even allow him to speak or answer. I just picked up my things and rushed out of there, not looking back. I was conflicted in more ways than one. I do know I made the right choice. I was dancing on a wire that was about to break and I had to force myself to step off. I was flirting with danger, with a fire that would only end up burning me so I had to leave it at that. 

That night I crawled into bed and didn’t want to think about anything. I just wanted to sleep. I couldn’t stop playing it in my head, it was burned into my memory. I was thinking about what would have happened if I allowed him to take control. My mind was swimming in these thoughts until I eventually exhausted myself into a deep sleep. 

“Autumn, I have wanted this to happen for so long. Please don’t make me stop” Xander lifted my body onto the desk, swiping the papers off in one motion. He ripped my blouse open with one tug and the buttons all came undone all at once. My chest breathed heavily in and out, his hot lips touched my skin, leaving shivers with every inhale. I tilted my head back as he kissed my chest revealing one breast at a time. He swirled his tongue around my hard nipples as his touch only excited them further. His hands cupped both with a gentle force, kissing both at the same time. I let out a moan that resound in his ear only making him kiss me harder. 

“Take me…Take me now!!” I screamed not knowing I was actually screaming this out loud in my sleep. Unaware that Tristan had come home and slipped into bed beside me. He was awakened by my request. Not knowing what I was dreaming. He stared in shock for a moment Then he started to kiss my neck as his hand pressed down my side cupping the roundness of my cheek. I moaned to the sensation of his touch. That only made him grip tighter as he sat up and kissed my lips with such a longing that it sent what felt like electricity through my entire body. 

“I want you so bad Autumn, I am aching for you” Tristan’s voice in my ear awakened me abruptly from the dream, I was shocked to see his body against mine. He slipped off my panties, tracing my inner thigh with his wet hot tongue. I gripped the sheets in complete ecstasy, allowing my body to give in to the sensations. He was tasting me, licking every drop that my body released onto his tongue. He gripped my thighs tight as he continued to intensely circle his tongue in repeated motions around my delicate spot. I gasped, I moaned, I screamed with pleasure as he got me closer and closer. I ran my fingers through his hair as he continued to suck, lick and swirl his tongue around. He looked up at me as my head tilted back, my eyes rolled white as the pleasure burst like flames spitting out of a fire. His tongue licked me clean as I burst into his mouth with excitement. He savored every drop until I was completely finished. 

Thinking it was over, I rolled onto my side and closed my eyes but then I felt a hand slip up my shirt and cup one of my breasts. The sensations left me in a cum-drunken haze, I was stunned. My body tingled with every touch of his hand, every graze of his tongue as it circled around my nipple. He pulled at his own drawstring, loosening his sweatpants. He then revealed his own hard cock, throbbing under the lighting from the half open window. 

I rose to my knees on the bed, I rested my hands on his chest, feeling his heart beating so hard it felt like a hammer against my fingertips. I slid my fingers down his chest, down to his waistline and then teased around his cock. I let out a faint moan as my left hand gripped around and started to thrust. I licked my right hand and Tristan watched, almost envious of my tongue. My right hand then gripped around his cock and I stroked him with long strokes until my mouth replaced my left hand. 

“Oh my god Autumn, that feels so fucking good” Tristan moaned through his teeth as he jerked his head back from the pleasure. 

“You like when I suck your hard cock baby?” I spoke with my right hand stroking his cock.

“Fuck....yes I do. No one does it like you do” He then grips his hand around a chunk of my hair into the shape of a ponytail and motions the strokes with his hand. 

“That’s right, show me how you want it” I enjoy the intensity of the moment as he stops me then pulls me up playfully with my hair to meet my gaze. 

“I can’t wait anymore. I need to fuck you right now” Tristan then moves towards the night stand by our bed, pulls out a condom, slides it onto his hard ready cock. Then he pushes me to my back, he spreads my legs with his hands and he then thrusts his cock inside. I gasp from the sensation as his body motions repeatedly intensifying each thrust into my body. He grabs my legs and pulls them higher so he can go in deeper. I then moan louder and it only causes the adrenaline to rush through his veins. He whispers into my ear as he thrusts deeper and harder inside.

“I love fucking you. I never should have stopped fucking you.” Tristan looks deep into my eyes as he continues to thrust deep inside. 

He forces me to my side and slides in only to go in deeper, leaving me in complete ecstasy. I am now breathless, moaning in unison with him as he reaches closer to climax. He grabs the round of my cheeks and forces my legs higher to thrust deeper. We are screaming together at this point and as he grips tighter, he feels the burst of release shake his entire body. We quiver as we feel the last thrust as we slow down from pleasure and exhaustion. 

Tristan then lays beside me as we both try to catch our breath. We smile at one another, feeling that spark again that was always there but just needed to be reignited. Anything that may have ever clouded my mind before this moment, had cleared as I felt sexy, comfortable, and loved once again in my husband’s arms.

The End